Scared

by Brian on 8/31/2004

I get scared when someone close to me decides to go a different path in their spiritual journey, when they decide to move to a different church for whatever reason, and I stay behind. It happened to me long ago, and recently I was thinking about it again. A long time ago my brother, who used to be in the same youth groups that I was in, decided to have fellowship in a completely different place, a brethren like church. He had his reasons, at the heart of most of them was that he disapproved of what our church believed. I felt like he disapproved of me.

When this happens it’s like you take a bullet in your spiritual gut. The best way to describe how I felt was scared and uncertain. I was scared that God also disapproved of me. And whenever this happens, that is how I feel. Proverbs teaches us not to be wise in our own eyes, so I always wonder about these things and my own confidence in what I believe is never that strong.

I don’t have answers, but I just needed to get this out of my chest. Feels nice to vent!

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  • Suzanne

    I understand how you feel. Sometimes you doubt yourself when
    Someone else sees a different way. Isn’t weird, no matter how
    much we don’t want it, we feel we need to accepted. And yet the only
    thing that matters is what God thinks. I just pray for the Peace
    of God. So that way I know what I did was right. Even if it may
    not be right for someone else.

  • Suzanne

    I understand how you feel. Sometimes you doubt yourself when
    Someone else sees a different way. Isn’t weird, no matter how
    much we don’t want it, we feel we need to accepted. And yet the only
    thing that matters is what God thinks. I just pray for the Peace
    of God. So that way I know what I did was right. Even if it may
    not be right for someone else.

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