I’m finding that lately I’m starting to think a lot more clearly about stuff, which is kind of a nice feeling. It’s like I’m alive or something, and paying more diligent attention to everything that is happening around me. When someone asks me a question or wants my opinion about something that’s happening, I seem to have an answer to respond with because I’m aware of what’s happening.
People have been telling me lately that I’m kind of nonchalant, or not really that caring… I can understand where they are coming from, but I don’t think their right. First of all, I confess that I’m not one hundred percent sure what that word means. 
But I think that they’re saying that I don’t seem that very caring or opinionated, or express myself that well. Actually, thinking about that reminds me that a lot of people have said that to me in the past. I am pretty sure that there is nothing wrong with me. I just think that I need to apply myself a bit more into the things that I believe in and like. I will point out that, even though I am “nonchalant,” and some people may not like that, having this quality also means that I don’t get into fights that often, and I think that is the main reason I’m like this.
A church family… never had one of those before and it feels strange to think that I’m actually a part of one. On my way to Atikokan on Thursday I was reading the chapter in Purpose Driven Life on fellowship and one of the writer’s points was that extra special attention should be placed on fellowship with fellow believers, even more so than fellowship with non-believers (feel free to comment on that statement if you like). For that reason I’ve decided to go to the HALO tournament tonight even though I’m not really a HALO fan because I can’t stand the controls in that game–I’m so much more used to a mouse when controlling a first person shooter. To be honest, I’m really just going for the fellowship and I’m kind of hoping that I can get out of playing HALO. Mario Kart would be much better!
This question just popped into my mind as I was typing that last paragraph. How are we suppose to care about other people? I don’t think there’s a specific way to do it. We should probably try to find out our own unique style of looking out for each other. And adding to what I wrote in one of my previous entries, some how we need to find a certain level of respect for ourselves before we can actually reach out to others. If we don’t have that then I guess we’ll need a bit of caring from others.
Well, I just wanted to thank God for today and to be able to enjoy the sunshine and the cloudy weather before the sun decided to show it’s face. And for the HALO tournament at Red Wood that I’m going to tonight, and for everyone there. Thank you for giving me air to breath, and loving me.
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