To start things off I’m going to say that I have started writing the last major scene of Gospelgirl and it looks like that story will be finished before Jacob and Steve, so I’m going to direct most of my effort on that story. I started it back in November anyway so I probably should finish that story first. For anyone who doesn’t know, Gospelgirl is the sequel to Gospelman (which you can read by clicking on the short story link to the right). Gospelgirl is pretty much the same story–it takes place during the same time that Gospelman did–but it is told from Joyce’s perspective.
So on to life now. Why do I have this tendency of always wanting to be perfect, to do the right things, and to think the right way about the right stuff. This desire isn’t wrong if it strives after the heart of God; the problem is, however, how do I know if my heart and mind is in tune with what God is thinking? Prayer… yes. Asking others what they think… sure. I wish God was just talk to me directly–well He kind of does. But it must have been a privilege for those who lived during Christ’s time. It feels like life is set up in some kind of philosophical paradox. Why does it feel like I have to figure out everything on my own?
“He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.” –Ecclesiastes 3:11
I was thinking about marriage lately. Nope, nobody in particular! I was thinking about it because of the talk that Nathan gave last Sunday night at Plunge. The idea of marriage kind of blows me away. I think the world we live in puts it down quite a bit, as though it’s merely a burden that ruins your life and ties you down. It’s merely something that requires a lot of maintenance and just ends in divorce anyway. I really don’t think there’s a precise formula, or a series of steps to follow that will keep a marriage together. I have seen the marriages of strong Christians fall apart. So I feel like I should have this pessimistic view of marriage for safety’s sake, but I shouldn’t allow sin to let me have a negative view of something that God created holy. That’s what marriage is, holy.
So… what about sex? Isn’t is just great to mention sex in your blog? I wonder if my mentioning sex a lot will make my search engine rankings will go up, or if the over usage of sex will cause people with parental filters to be unable to view my site. 
I remember one time at Youth Encounter when I was in grade nine the speaker gave a talk about sex. One of the points that he made was that Satan has a way of playing a big trick on us–a big lie–by sending us the message that sex is wrong, a sin. Since the world exploits sex, our natural reaction is to see it as something that is sinful. But going back to my previous paragraph… we have this thing called marriage.
I remember getting into a discussion with some people about girls. I think we were talking about how to spend time with a girl you were dating–with the purpose of marriage in mind, I guess. So they suggested the idea that you should have little bible studies together and spend a lot of time praying together. I have no problem with that, necessarily, and it’s a good idea, but I told them that the couple should be careful and probably should avoid having bible studies and praying together in secluded, private places. It was something that a youth pastor told me because prayer is something that is very intimate, and statistically prayer has led many couples to premarital sex. You can still pray together, but you should take into account where you’re praying, to guard against temptation. They shot me down for this remark, saying that any girl I should be dating should be a strong enough Christian not to be caught in sexual temptation. I’m not sure if I would want to date such a girl. 
(who thought she was strong enough to avoid temptation)
“For whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.” –Luke 14:11
And I could go on to add:
“Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God, but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men. And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross. Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”
–Philippians 2:5-11
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